Tuesday, 11 December 2012

When we fall

Like she did today ...

There you are, going about your own business, doing the things that you are supposed to be, worrying about trivialities - and your child falls.

There is something second splitting about watching your child fall or get hurt. Everything is in slow motion and unfurls frame by frame. And yet your feet do not move fast enough. And then there is that sickening thud when there is impact .

In retrospect you wonder if you froze for an extra instant. Couldn't you have been faster. Was it your fault that it happened in the first place? Were you not supposed to be more vigilant to start with?

Where are the answers when one needs them? Where is the reassurance when the pain that your child bears crushes you with guilt? What do you do when you know that you have failed without even having tried too. But most of all why does it hurt more in your heart than it possibly could have hurt your bruised child?

7 comments:

  1. Hope both of you are okay *hugs*

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    1. Yes - we both are fine now :) thank you !

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    2. Yes - we both are fine now :) thank you !

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  2. AS a mom of 2 boys, I have this to say: Don't let it get to you! The criticism, I mean, whether it is from some one else or that imp in your head! Kids will get hurt...that's how they'll learn, and learning by personal experience is the best way ever! Think about it!

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  3. Aww! They do fall and they will get hurt. It's ok. Don't be too hard on yourself!! A kiss, a hug and an ice lolly is all that they need and then they jump back up! :)

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  4. aww..*hugs* I know the feelings..but also agree with Simran and Roshni...I am beginning (just a little) to accept that they'll keep falling but will also be back on their feet sooon...so hang in there!

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  5. Than you ladies - all your comments made me feel better :-)

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